Well this morning (Tuesday) was my attempt to get back into routine. I should have admitted to myself that I just didn't have the energy in order to homeschool the kids. Mesalech can't come back to work until her situation is sorted and my usual enthusiasm for cooking is gone. (This is when take out would come in really handy!)
With 5 kids of our own, conflict resolution and decision making is a constant part of our lives. (Our kids are getting quite good at it and understand how to do that without violence.) This is not the case with the Gumuz community though the mature believers are growing in this area. In addition to this, we are responsible for the project staff. In addition to this, we are involved in the ministry of teaching and discipling.
Yesterday, I crashed. My house was a mess, more decisions to make re: people's conflicts and broken wells, it was hot and I was tired. I managed to get a nap in the afternoon but was woken by my children calling me (which I will admit made me rather grumpy).
This morning, I was woken at 6:30 by a very cheerful 3 year old who wanted to play. Rolf made breakfast and I was tired through and through. We attempted school at 8:30 and made it through an hour. I then realized it just wasn't worth it. I need to refuel before I can give again (even just to my kids). Why is that so hard to admit? n Rolf has a busy day and I feel like finding a corner and having a good cry.
With 5 kids of our own, conflict resolution and decision making is a constant part of our lives. (Our kids are getting quite good at it and understand how to do that without violence.) This is not the case with the Gumuz community though the mature believers are growing in this area. In addition to this, we are responsible for the project staff. In addition to this, we are involved in the ministry of teaching and discipling.
Yesterday, I crashed. My house was a mess, more decisions to make re: people's conflicts and broken wells, it was hot and I was tired. I managed to get a nap in the afternoon but was woken by my children calling me (which I will admit made me rather grumpy).
This morning, I was woken at 6:30 by a very cheerful 3 year old who wanted to play. Rolf made breakfast and I was tired through and through. We attempted school at 8:30 and made it through an hour. I then realized it just wasn't worth it. I need to refuel before I can give again (even just to my kids). Why is that so hard to admit? n Rolf has a busy day and I feel like finding a corner and having a good cry.
Oh Ange, I will pray for you today! When I read your blog updates I often wonder how you keep going... of course, it is with strength from God. But these challenges must be oh-so-overwhelming. I hope you have a day of blessing and rest.
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